got to work today and quickly decided i just didn't want to be there. so i stuck it out about 4 hours and then decided to take some personal time. i got home and immediately crawled back into bed and slept for 2 hours. it was wonderful. its amazing how a good nap can make you so happy.
for those that haven't heard mark started his new job last friday. i was never afraid that he wouldn't find a job we just didn't want him to go back on the road. so God found him a job where he is in town and using his 20+ years of experience running a shop instead of busting his knuckles out in the field. Thank you Jesus.
it is amazing to me how much my kids love gradespeed. if you don't know this is a website where you can pull up your kids grades. they love to see where they are and what they need to work on. moe is currently a straight A student and is so proud of himself. freddie is pushing the envelope as always. she likes to sit on the line between failing and passing. she is gonna be very sad if we have to take her car away to prove a point. squirt is doing great. she got off on the wrong foot in geometry but has quickly recovered. her teacher grades their homework on whether they finish it and not on if they actually do the work correctly so for the first 3 weeks she thought she understood everything and was quite surprised to get a 63 on her progress report. she cried. but has brought that 63 up to a passing grade.
we got the word last thursday that the union was unsuccessful in saving the 79 jobs slated for elimination. so now the bumping process begins. i haven't heard anything yet but should by the end of the month. we'll just see how it goes. God has a plan and i just have to hang on and see what it is. at this point i'm so frustrated with my job and the whole all of it i don't even want to work there anymore. but once again i am thankful for the job i have and can't forget what a blessing it was when i first started there and could stop working retail. not that i didn't love retail i just didn't love the schedule or the pay. nights and weekends and low pay are hard on single mommas.
Monday, September 29, 2008
Saturday, September 20, 2008
no news
for those of ya'll waiting for news i have none. mark is still waiting to hear on the job interview he had this week and other than that not much is going on. Thanks to everyone who is praying for us and believe me i will let ya'll know just as soon as we hear anything. he's doing his best to stay busy but its been hard. i can't complain he's been doing dishes and laundry and he even scrubbed the kitchen floor the other day but this is not the productive work he needs. he needs a job. he could have picked up the phone 2 weeks ago and had a job instantly but it would mean a major family sacrifice and we are not willing to walk down that road again. so here we sit waiting on the Lord. i don't remember praying for patience but then God knows what we need. from the very beginning i have felt this would be a "walking out your faith time" for us and i have a peace that He is in control and the right job will be there at just the right time. i must admit i have enjoyed having my husband home more.
Friday, September 12, 2008
in the waiting
as always music speaks to me and for me
Pain
The gift nobody longs for, still it comes
And somehow leaves us stronger
When it's gone away
Pray
I try and pray for Your will to be done
But I confess it's never fast enough for me
It seems
the hardest part is waiting on You
When what I really want
Is just to see Your hand move
I want a peace beyond my understanding
I want to feel it fall like rain
In the middle of my hurting
I want to feel Your arms as they surround me
And let me know that it's okay
To be here in this place
Resting in the peace that only comes
In the waiting
Time
Time to let it go and just believe
Trusting in what no one else but You can see
Free
Freedom from the fears that close me in
When I can't get beyond where I have been, but then
Again
The silence doesn't mean that I'm alone
As long as I can hear
That I am still Your own
I want a peace beyond my understanding
I want to feel it fall like rain
In the middle of my hurting
I want to feel Your arms as they surround me
And let me know that it's okay
To be here in this place
Resting in the peace that only comes
In the waiting
Pain
The gift nobody longs for, still it comes
And somehow leaves us stronger
When it's gone away
Pray
I try and pray for Your will to be done
But I confess it's never fast enough for me
It seems
the hardest part is waiting on You
When what I really want
Is just to see Your hand move
I want a peace beyond my understanding
I want to feel it fall like rain
In the middle of my hurting
I want to feel Your arms as they surround me
And let me know that it's okay
To be here in this place
Resting in the peace that only comes
In the waiting
Time
Time to let it go and just believe
Trusting in what no one else but You can see
Free
Freedom from the fears that close me in
When I can't get beyond where I have been, but then
Again
The silence doesn't mean that I'm alone
As long as I can hear
That I am still Your own
I want a peace beyond my understanding
I want to feel it fall like rain
In the middle of my hurting
I want to feel Your arms as they surround me
And let me know that it's okay
To be here in this place
Resting in the peace that only comes
In the waiting
no words
i have been running this blog over and over in my head and i just don't have the right words to express what i'm feeling right now.
shock, surprise, disbelief
my husband was fired from his job on tuesday.
no warning, no reason, just we are gonna let you go.
why?
this is what i keep asking myself, why?
needless to say we are in a state of shock. my husband is not perfect and has never claimed to be but this was so totally out of the blue. so we are trusting God that he has something better planned and that He will show us what to do next. so just pray for us. thats all we know to do.
shock, surprise, disbelief
my husband was fired from his job on tuesday.
no warning, no reason, just we are gonna let you go.
why?
this is what i keep asking myself, why?
needless to say we are in a state of shock. my husband is not perfect and has never claimed to be but this was so totally out of the blue. so we are trusting God that he has something better planned and that He will show us what to do next. so just pray for us. thats all we know to do.
follower
i logged in and what did i spy with my little eye.
i have a follower.
i feel so special.
thanks ree
i'll try not to disappoint you.
i have a follower.
i feel so special.
thanks ree
i'll try not to disappoint you.
Sunday, September 7, 2008
healing
i am so glad that i went to church this morning. it was one of those days that i would have gladly stayed home and slept but i learned a long time ago that when i feel this way i MUST go to church. pastor's message on healing was awesome and it reminded me of my own healing story.
13 years ago about a month after i accepted Jesus as my Lord and Savior i was sitting in church all bright and shiny because i was finally clean after so many years of living with my sin. i had walked into church that morning with a sore throat. now you are probably thinking so what everyone gets a sore throat from time to time. well this was no ordinary sore throat, you see i had spent the previous winter with a non-stop sore throat and when i finally broke down and went to see the doctor he told me the only way i was gonna get rid of the sore throat was to have my tonsils out. they apparently were very pitted from past infections and the only solution was to have them removed. well at this time i was a single mom and there was no way i could afford to have this surgery so when the pain went away so did any thought of me having my tonsils removed. well here it was months later and the sore throat was back and i knew this meant surgery that i still couldn't afford. well God knew better. this was no ordinary sunday service i don't even remember if there was any preaching. so i'm sitting there and the Holy Spirit starts to move and this little methodist girl who has been told all her life that pentacostal people are freaks and that if i ever went to a holy roller church i was just one step away from hell was scared to death. of course the people i was sitting with had me pinned in and i couldn't run screaming from the church i just sat and watched and let me tell you this was no calm move. there were people running and shouting and laughing and crying and dancing and big gulp speaking in tongues. the lady that i had come with was dancing so hard her shoe flew off and by the end of service she was laying under a pew with no memory as to how she got there. so you can just picture me sitting there looking at all this and just thinking in my mind "freaks they're all freaks" and then my next thought is "this can't be real". so in my innocent baby christian mind i asked God to prove to me that the Holy Spirit was real and if its really real He will heal my throat. i don't know what i was expecting lighting bolts, angels singing the hallelujah chorus, a bright shaft of light coming straight down from heaven but none of that happened. i prayed my prayer and swallowed hard and begged God to prove Himself to me. i didn't realize at the time how much i needed Him to just be everything i needed Him to be, everything that everyone was telling me He could be and everything that His word said He would be. needless to say i walked out of the church that sunday with a completely healed throat. i still have my tonsils and i have only had 1 sore throat in the last 13 years. i know this is a pretty old story but i have always been told that if its God it will stand the test of time. this is only the first of many healings God has performed on my heart and body and mind over the last 13 years and i'm sure it won't be the last.
so this is my question to you is there something God wants to heal you from but you won't let Him or your too afraid to allow Him. take my advice don't wait, stop running and let God do what He wants to do with your life. you'll be glad you did.
13 years ago about a month after i accepted Jesus as my Lord and Savior i was sitting in church all bright and shiny because i was finally clean after so many years of living with my sin. i had walked into church that morning with a sore throat. now you are probably thinking so what everyone gets a sore throat from time to time. well this was no ordinary sore throat, you see i had spent the previous winter with a non-stop sore throat and when i finally broke down and went to see the doctor he told me the only way i was gonna get rid of the sore throat was to have my tonsils out. they apparently were very pitted from past infections and the only solution was to have them removed. well at this time i was a single mom and there was no way i could afford to have this surgery so when the pain went away so did any thought of me having my tonsils removed. well here it was months later and the sore throat was back and i knew this meant surgery that i still couldn't afford. well God knew better. this was no ordinary sunday service i don't even remember if there was any preaching. so i'm sitting there and the Holy Spirit starts to move and this little methodist girl who has been told all her life that pentacostal people are freaks and that if i ever went to a holy roller church i was just one step away from hell was scared to death. of course the people i was sitting with had me pinned in and i couldn't run screaming from the church i just sat and watched and let me tell you this was no calm move. there were people running and shouting and laughing and crying and dancing and big gulp speaking in tongues. the lady that i had come with was dancing so hard her shoe flew off and by the end of service she was laying under a pew with no memory as to how she got there. so you can just picture me sitting there looking at all this and just thinking in my mind "freaks they're all freaks" and then my next thought is "this can't be real". so in my innocent baby christian mind i asked God to prove to me that the Holy Spirit was real and if its really real He will heal my throat. i don't know what i was expecting lighting bolts, angels singing the hallelujah chorus, a bright shaft of light coming straight down from heaven but none of that happened. i prayed my prayer and swallowed hard and begged God to prove Himself to me. i didn't realize at the time how much i needed Him to just be everything i needed Him to be, everything that everyone was telling me He could be and everything that His word said He would be. needless to say i walked out of the church that sunday with a completely healed throat. i still have my tonsils and i have only had 1 sore throat in the last 13 years. i know this is a pretty old story but i have always been told that if its God it will stand the test of time. this is only the first of many healings God has performed on my heart and body and mind over the last 13 years and i'm sure it won't be the last.
so this is my question to you is there something God wants to heal you from but you won't let Him or your too afraid to allow Him. take my advice don't wait, stop running and let God do what He wants to do with your life. you'll be glad you did.
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
cool website
now that i'm going to college i have all these college books that i don't know what to do with. well i found this really cool website. they don't just buy textbooks they buy regular books too. i have sold them 3 books and they are sending me a check for $60. i know i might get more money through ebay but this website is so super easy to use and they pay for all the shipping costs. so if you have any old books lying around that you want to get rid of go on and check it out.
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