worlds longest bullet points

• i have started my next class so my posts may get pretty spaced out. i'll try to post something every few days. someday i want my girls to know that college is important no matter how long it takes you to finish. and that you still have to balance fun and work.
• my cleaning bug has turned into the full blown spring cleaning flu. its gotten so bad i'm actually working in the yard. i like the idea of having a well manicured lawn and pristine flower beds, but until now have not put any effort into it. well my plan this weekend was to paint the trim on my house but since the humidity level was so high i decided spur of the moment to tear out my front flowerbed and make it bigger. my husband was quite surprised when he got home and found me covered with dirt and a wheelbarrow full of bricks. so the plan is he is gonna start bringing me rocks home to use as a new border and me and my sisser will do the rest. i come from a family that can grow anything except me. i can keep stuff alive but i don't have alot of vision when it comes to planting. once its done i can keep it maintained. i actually like the maintaining part it is very relaxing to me. i can spend my evening hours enjoying my yard and piddling.
• everybody check out my friend just jinny. shes a pretty awesome lady that i work with.
• ok enough dawdling....i have homework to do. :(

get ready to cry

sorry ladies get your tissues. i cried my eyes out when i saw this video. it so reminded me of the love of my Heavenly Father and even though i don't have an earthy father to help me run. God will carry me over that finish line and say well done.

Team Hoyt Motivational Video

couldn't resist

as i was leaving the grocery store today there were 2 guys admiring and actually touching my truck. i just couldn't resist the temptation. as i approached them i hit my panic button. you should have seen them jump. i laughed all the way home.

good times good times.

they'll think twice before touching someone else's vehicle.

functionally dysfunctional

freddie's therapist stated today that we are functionally dysfunctional.

which is good...i think.

no actually it is very good.

she explained that we have taken a very dysfunctional situation and have made it functional. we have achieved what God intended a family to be. each member doing their part to contribute to the whole working order of the family. we aren't blaming each other for all the bad things that have happened, but are working together to make the best of a bad situation.

Thanks God we couldn't do this without You.

mean girls

every year about this time we receive the registration papers for squirts school. most years its a no brainer. this year has been different. i don't understand why girls have to be so mean. to say that this year has been hard would be an understatement. because she goes to private school and her class is very small (9 girls and no boys) its very easy to be the target especially if you have a strong personality. squirt has always been an independant child with a mind of her own. but she is also a girl who wants to be loved, liked and fit in. she doesn't always fit in. i feel her pain so deeply i just want to go up there some days and give these girls a piece of my mind. but then i realize this won't do any good, she must learn from this and grow. its the growing part thats so painful. so here's our problem we can continue to send her to private school or enroll her in public school. she is 50/50. somedays public school sounds good and somedays private school is good. i need your prayers. i feel like any decision we make will screw her up for the rest of her life.

i feel so private

i feel so private with my new private blog. i thought i would feel closed in knowing exactly who was reading and commenting on my blog, but on the contrary. it feels nice. i know everyone invited and that i can trust them and God with my heart and thoughts. it reminds me of a newborn baby that needs to be swaddled to feel secure and comfortable. it also reminds me of the play houses me and my sisters would make. we would drag as many kitchen chairs as we could into our room and then cover them with blankets. then we would climb inside and play house. i would feel so safe and cozy. sometimes my mom would let us sleep overnight in them. this was a special treat ranking right up there with staying up late watching a movie and 'accidentally' falling asleep on the couch and getting to sleep there all night. i'm not sure why that was so much fun, but my kids fight over sleeping on the couch. as i type squirt is taking a nap on the couch and i'm wondering why am i not taking a nap on the couch. maybe i should go shove her over and take a little snooze before church.

mommas don't let your babies grow up to be teenagers

moe is crushing on a girl and she is crushing back. do kids still say this phrase 'crushing'. well thats the term i'm gonna use. what makes matters worse is she is just a little too aggressive for my liking. she calls all the time and invites herself over. its just too much. plus the fact that they are only 12 years old. her father, myself and mark are all on the same page with the no dating policy. but her mother thinks it would be just fine for them to go to the movies alone.

NO!!!!!! this will never happen.

they can talk on the phone and occasionally see each other in a chaparoned environment. but absolutely no dating. they have this really cute way of hitting each other, so very junior high. but like i said this girl is very aggressive if she calls and moe isn't home, we will politely say he isn't home and he will call you back. well she never gives him the chance to call back. she will call back every 10 minutes. luckily this has only happened one or twice. i explained to moe that he better tell her nice not to call every 10 minutes or there will be no phone calls for him. but i'm afraid i'm gonna have to have a little talk with her. i don't think she realizes how disrespectful it is to call someones house non-stop, after you've been told not too. but if it continues she will know.

all of this has opened up some wonderful conversations in our home. we are very careful not to speak rudely of moe's friend but we have also had the opportunity to talk to him about respect. and the proper way to treat women and what it means to date. all of this and trying to help him keep in perspective that he is 12 years old and is not old enough or mature enough for a serious exclusive relationship.

prying eyes

you can't hide those prying eyes

and your smile is a thin disquise

i thought by now you'd realize

there ain't no way to hide those prying eyes

i held on as long as i could.

squirt and freddie now have blogs. so i am choosing to make my blog private.

if you want access to my blog please send your email address to mrjcwatson@msn.com.

grocery lists and oven smells

everytime i start a grocery list squirt always adds something to it. last week it was a pony. even if i got her a pony i would be the one feeding it and cleaning it and hauling it to the vet. this is one reason we only have 2 cats and a my sister's dog. i love the cats and enjoy caring for them. i hate the dog and so if the kids don't feed it who cares. just joking i do make sure they feed him and walk him and clean up his poop in the backyard. they really love that last task.

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i cleaned the oven yesterday and this morning when squirt was making her breakfast she commented on the how the oven smelled different. not bad just different. i explained that i cleaned it. she informed me that she likes the old smell. i told her just give it time and it will have the old smell again. i'm sure it won't take us long to dirty it up.

cleaning day

it only happens every once in a while but i have the deep cleaning bug. so i have taken a mental health day to clean my home. when i was younger i used to laugh at the women i knew who did this. well now i'm one of those women. i don't know why but it makes me deeply content when i spend one whole day really cleaning the whole house. cleaning all those cracks and crevices that usually get just a quick swipe. my home is not trashed by any means but who wants to clean baseboards every week. i don't. been there done that. right out of high school i took a job cleaning these 2 ladies houses. well if you can call cleaning an already clean house cleaning then thats what i did. no lie. i would deep clean both of their houses not once but twice a week. we are talking hinges to baseboards, moving furniture and the whole shebang. that was the most horribly boring job i've ever had. so since that time i decided my home would never be that clean and i've pretty much stuck to it. my husband grew up in an ultra clean home and would prefer our home to have that lived in look. so his wish is my desire. but every once in while you do need to knock down the cobwebs and vacuum under the sofa cushions and behind the couch and wipe down a baseboard. so this is what i'm doing today. i love to do it all alone because i can be ultra dis-organized. i am so organized in every area of my life that when i clean house i bounce from room to room with no real plan. i might dust the living room and then go wash dishes and after that fold some laundry and then wipe down the bar. i don't know how but it all gets done and i just let my mind wander all day long. wonderfulness. oh and i'm still in my pajamas and will stay in my pajamas all day until i'm forced to get in the shower and get dressed. and right now i forsee no crisis large enough to force me to do that.

1 down 39 to go

i have successfully finished my first college class. i made an a. i just have 39 classes to go to get my degree. i should be done by the first of the year.....2014 hahahahahahaha

someone asked me the other day why i didn't go to college after high school and i really had to think about that. my senior year of high school was so chaotic. my mom was divorcing my step-dad. my step-mom had left my dad. my oldest brother was diagnosed hiv positive and i was the only one who knew about it. so my whole world was spinning out of control and i just wanted a normal life. little did i know at the time that there is no such thing as normal. we only have the peace of God that surpasses all understanding.