nag, nag, nag

it is better to live in a corner of a roof
than in a house shared with a contentious woman.
proverbs 21:9

this is the verse that caught my eye this morning as i was reading. i try not to be a contentious women but sometimes i just can't help it. you know those times when your husband tells you they are going to do this or that and then weeks go by and this or that is still not done and you quite innocently ask when are they gonna do this or that and they give you that look and then explain to you how busy they are with everything else. its those times that i try to not be a contentious woman but it sure is hard. its at those times that i wish my husband would go live in a corner of the roof. i'm sure this is not what the writer of proverbs had in mind. maybe he meant you better not come home if you've promised your wife you would do something and still have not done it. maybe he is speaking to all the men out there that if you don't do it she's gonna be mad and give you an earful. i'm sure my interpretation is not completely right but i would like to know what has made this women contentious. is she naturally contentious or has her husbands behaviour made her contentious. maybe Jesus will explain this to me when i get to heaven. until then i will pray for my contentious ways and for my husband who causes me to be this way. amen.

finally

someone finally found the dash for cash money......thank you Jesus!!!!

i can now have my park back.

a man of honor

just wanted to take the opportunity to express my feelings for my husband. he's an awesome man and i thank God everyday for bringing us together. how we got together is kinda funny. i had resigned myself to the fact that i would be single forever. i had decided God would be my husband and i was perfectly content with the arrangement. i wasn't willing to compromise and accept God's permissive will i only wanted God's perfect will and if that meant being single then i was happy. so i was single for 5 years and then God brought mark. no he's not a perfect man but then i'm not a perfect woman. we have had our bumps in the road but we both know that we want to be with each other forever, come what may. the last year has been an especially bumpy road with my sister's breakdown and us stepping up to take her children. my husband has set aside his desire of being self-employed so that we will have the assurance of a steady paycheck. he has supported me in my desire to get a college education and has taken up the slack with the kids and a not so tidy home. i've never been much of a housekeeper so its not saying much. needless to say he is a real man. a man that continually puts his family above himself and shows us everyday that we are important and loved.

the bigger part of me

there is a small part of me that doesn't want to do this college thing.....but the bigger part of me pulls up her big girl parties and does it anyways.

there is a small part of me that wants to smack someone right across the face for being a greedy and manipulative person......but the bigger part of me just smiles and prays that God will give me the strength to love this person because God loves me when i'm pretty stinky.

there is a small part of me that just wants to curl up into a little ball and cry myself into oblivion....but the bigger part of me keeps putting one foot in front of the other day after day.

there is a small part of me that wonders why.....but the bigger part of me knows its all for His glory.

giving in to the madness

it all started very innocently. i was taking a walk monday evening through my local park when i realized there sure are alot of people in the park tonight and they all are talking on their cell phones and looking at the ground as they talk and walk. some of these people had paper in their hands. then it hit me the dash for cash. we have a local radio station that gives away money. the only catch is you have to listen to the clues and try to figure out where it is hidden. i thought how cool would it be if i just innocently during the course of my walk found the money. i'm not by nature a greedy person but who can resist the thought of free money just there for the taking. and we're not talking about a small amount of money. the prize is up to $4000. everyweek that someone doesn't find the money they add another $1000 to the pot. so all week long i've been watching people hunt for this money. everytime i drive or walk by at all hours of the night and day there are people combing this park for the money. everyone is convinced the money is hidden somewhere in the park by my house. so today at work all of our systems crash. so what do we do? we sit and talk about how no one has found this money and the lady that sits across from me has a print out of all 47 clues. so we spend the next 2 1/2 hours decipering clues and getting frustrated that we are getting paid good money to sit there and talk and they should just let us leave and go to the park and find the money. so my friend monique and i decide we might as well take some personal time and go try our luck at the park. so off we go to hunt for hidden treasure. needless to say after about 2 hours we decided we had wasted enough of our day hunting and called it quits. as i type there are a swarm of people at the park still looking. i'm really surprised no one has found it. i'm thinking it would be really funny if they have misinterpreted the clues and are looking in the wrong park. we did look in 2 other parks in the same general area that actually fit the clues better but alas we found no money. maybe tonight as i take my evening walk my eye will look in just the right spot and spy the prize or maybe i will get some good exercise out in the fresh air and pray that all the treasure hunters find the real prize.

where did this background come from

its pretty strange to go on your blog and not recognize the background. its only been a week since i've posted so its not like my myspace page where quite often my song gets deleted by the author.

quite recently i have discovered sparkpeople and i am addicted. thanks dewey hafta. its like the very best of myspace, weight watchers, and blogger all rolled into one website. so if you're trying to lose weight and need a support group check it out. i've done ww for the last 3 months and have lost 14 pounds but i just wasn't getting anything out of the classes here or on their website to justify paying every month. i am a cheapskate at heart. and the very best thing about spark is its free and the people are so very encouraging. i was signed on the first time and already had positive comments on my sparkpage. so very cool and just what i was looking for.

i should be doing homework right now but i don't want to. i spent most of my day yesterday reading 3 chapters of biology and answering multiple choice questions. so today i just don't want to write 3 essays and do a media lab on "you are what you eat" and write 2 more essays on my findings.

moe will be leaving this friday to spend most of the summer with my brother, his uncle kent. he is going to learn how to be a produce man. my brother has about 10 acres in the ft worth area where he grows all these wonderful organic vegetables and then sells it on a street corner. sounds fun huh. so moe will learn the last art of picking veggies. i think this will be wonderful manly bonding time for the 2 of them. i think they are also gonna get in some fishing and napping too.

and last but not least.....i learned almost 15 years ago as a new mother that a wet paper towel cures a multitude of illnesses. my almost 15 year old daughter is laying on the couch with a wet paper towel on her leg. apparently she has an ant bite. go figure.