it is better to live in a corner of a roof
than in a house shared with a contentious woman.
proverbs 21:9
this is the verse that caught my eye this morning as i was reading. i try not to be a contentious women but sometimes i just can't help it. you know those times when your husband tells you they are going to do this or that and then weeks go by and this or that is still not done and you quite innocently ask when are they gonna do this or that and they give you that look and then explain to you how busy they are with everything else. its those times that i try to not be a contentious woman but it sure is hard. its at those times that i wish my husband would go live in a corner of the roof. i'm sure this is not what the writer of proverbs had in mind. maybe he meant you better not come home if you've promised your wife you would do something and still have not done it. maybe he is speaking to all the men out there that if you don't do it she's gonna be mad and give you an earful. i'm sure my interpretation is not completely right but i would like to know what has made this women contentious. is she naturally contentious or has her husbands behaviour made her contentious. maybe Jesus will explain this to me when i get to heaven. until then i will pray for my contentious ways and for my husband who causes me to be this way. amen.
Saturday, June 21, 2008
finally
someone finally found the dash for cash money......thank you Jesus!!!!
i can now have my park back.
i can now have my park back.
Sunday, June 15, 2008
a man of honor
just wanted to take the opportunity to express my feelings for my husband. he's an awesome man and i thank God everyday for bringing us together. how we got together is kinda funny. i had resigned myself to the fact that i would be single forever. i had decided God would be my husband and i was perfectly content with the arrangement. i wasn't willing to compromise and accept God's permissive will i only wanted God's perfect will and if that meant being single then i was happy. so i was single for 5 years and then God brought mark. no he's not a perfect man but then i'm not a perfect woman. we have had our bumps in the road but we both know that we want to be with each other forever, come what may. the last year has been an especially bumpy road with my sister's breakdown and us stepping up to take her children. my husband has set aside his desire of being self-employed so that we will have the assurance of a steady paycheck. he has supported me in my desire to get a college education and has taken up the slack with the kids and a not so tidy home. i've never been much of a housekeeper so its not saying much. needless to say he is a real man. a man that continually puts his family above himself and shows us everyday that we are important and loved.
Friday, June 13, 2008
the bigger part of me
there is a small part of me that doesn't want to do this college thing.....but the bigger part of me pulls up her big girl parties and does it anyways.
there is a small part of me that wants to smack someone right across the face for being a greedy and manipulative person......but the bigger part of me just smiles and prays that God will give me the strength to love this person because God loves me when i'm pretty stinky.
there is a small part of me that just wants to curl up into a little ball and cry myself into oblivion....but the bigger part of me keeps putting one foot in front of the other day after day.
there is a small part of me that wonders why.....but the bigger part of me knows its all for His glory.
there is a small part of me that wants to smack someone right across the face for being a greedy and manipulative person......but the bigger part of me just smiles and prays that God will give me the strength to love this person because God loves me when i'm pretty stinky.
there is a small part of me that just wants to curl up into a little ball and cry myself into oblivion....but the bigger part of me keeps putting one foot in front of the other day after day.
there is a small part of me that wonders why.....but the bigger part of me knows its all for His glory.
Friday, June 6, 2008
giving in to the madness
it all started very innocently. i was taking a walk monday evening through my local park when i realized there sure are alot of people in the park tonight and they all are talking on their cell phones and looking at the ground as they talk and walk. some of these people had paper in their hands. then it hit me the dash for cash. we have a local radio station that gives away money. the only catch is you have to listen to the clues and try to figure out where it is hidden. i thought how cool would it be if i just innocently during the course of my walk found the money. i'm not by nature a greedy person but who can resist the thought of free money just there for the taking. and we're not talking about a small amount of money. the prize is up to $4000. everyweek that someone doesn't find the money they add another $1000 to the pot. so all week long i've been watching people hunt for this money. everytime i drive or walk by at all hours of the night and day there are people combing this park for the money. everyone is convinced the money is hidden somewhere in the park by my house. so today at work all of our systems crash. so what do we do? we sit and talk about how no one has found this money and the lady that sits across from me has a print out of all 47 clues. so we spend the next 2 1/2 hours decipering clues and getting frustrated that we are getting paid good money to sit there and talk and they should just let us leave and go to the park and find the money. so my friend monique and i decide we might as well take some personal time and go try our luck at the park. so off we go to hunt for hidden treasure. needless to say after about 2 hours we decided we had wasted enough of our day hunting and called it quits. as i type there are a swarm of people at the park still looking. i'm really surprised no one has found it. i'm thinking it would be really funny if they have misinterpreted the clues and are looking in the wrong park. we did look in 2 other parks in the same general area that actually fit the clues better but alas we found no money. maybe tonight as i take my evening walk my eye will look in just the right spot and spy the prize or maybe i will get some good exercise out in the fresh air and pray that all the treasure hunters find the real prize.
Sunday, June 1, 2008
where did this background come from
its pretty strange to go on your blog and not recognize the background. its only been a week since i've posted so its not like my myspace page where quite often my song gets deleted by the author.
quite recently i have discovered sparkpeople and i am addicted. thanks dewey hafta. its like the very best of myspace, weight watchers, and blogger all rolled into one website. so if you're trying to lose weight and need a support group check it out. i've done ww for the last 3 months and have lost 14 pounds but i just wasn't getting anything out of the classes here or on their website to justify paying every month. i am a cheapskate at heart. and the very best thing about spark is its free and the people are so very encouraging. i was signed on the first time and already had positive comments on my sparkpage. so very cool and just what i was looking for.
i should be doing homework right now but i don't want to. i spent most of my day yesterday reading 3 chapters of biology and answering multiple choice questions. so today i just don't want to write 3 essays and do a media lab on "you are what you eat" and write 2 more essays on my findings.
moe will be leaving this friday to spend most of the summer with my brother, his uncle kent. he is going to learn how to be a produce man. my brother has about 10 acres in the ft worth area where he grows all these wonderful organic vegetables and then sells it on a street corner. sounds fun huh. so moe will learn the last art of picking veggies. i think this will be wonderful manly bonding time for the 2 of them. i think they are also gonna get in some fishing and napping too.
and last but not least.....i learned almost 15 years ago as a new mother that a wet paper towel cures a multitude of illnesses. my almost 15 year old daughter is laying on the couch with a wet paper towel on her leg. apparently she has an ant bite. go figure.
quite recently i have discovered sparkpeople and i am addicted. thanks dewey hafta. its like the very best of myspace, weight watchers, and blogger all rolled into one website. so if you're trying to lose weight and need a support group check it out. i've done ww for the last 3 months and have lost 14 pounds but i just wasn't getting anything out of the classes here or on their website to justify paying every month. i am a cheapskate at heart. and the very best thing about spark is its free and the people are so very encouraging. i was signed on the first time and already had positive comments on my sparkpage. so very cool and just what i was looking for.
i should be doing homework right now but i don't want to. i spent most of my day yesterday reading 3 chapters of biology and answering multiple choice questions. so today i just don't want to write 3 essays and do a media lab on "you are what you eat" and write 2 more essays on my findings.
moe will be leaving this friday to spend most of the summer with my brother, his uncle kent. he is going to learn how to be a produce man. my brother has about 10 acres in the ft worth area where he grows all these wonderful organic vegetables and then sells it on a street corner. sounds fun huh. so moe will learn the last art of picking veggies. i think this will be wonderful manly bonding time for the 2 of them. i think they are also gonna get in some fishing and napping too.
and last but not least.....i learned almost 15 years ago as a new mother that a wet paper towel cures a multitude of illnesses. my almost 15 year old daughter is laying on the couch with a wet paper towel on her leg. apparently she has an ant bite. go figure.
Sunday, May 25, 2008
scriptures
as part of my list i am making an effort to read thru the whole bible. i've read alot of the bible but i'm not sure if i've read the WHOLE thing. since our womens bible study has been in the book of psalms i thought i would start there. on may 1st i started reading psalms. i divided the chapters into 30 days of reading. this works out to about 5 chapters a day. so on may 30th i will have read the entire book of psalms. i must admit i have read the book of psalms before but it never hurts to read them again. i find it fascinating how many psalms we have made into songs. and i'm not just talking about hymns but songs i listen to just about everyday on the radio or on my ipod. the word of God is truly timeless and speaks to us no matter where we are or where we have been. below are just a few verses that have really ministered to me this week. also the song "not to us" that we sang this morning in church is from ps 115.
ps 102
even they will perish, but You endure;
and all of them will wear out like a garment;
like clothing You will change them and they will be changed.
but You are the same,
and Your years will not come to an end.
the children of Your servants will continue,
and their desendants will be established before You.
ps 143:6
i stretch out my hands to You;
my soul longs for You, as a parched land. Selah.
ps 144:15b
how blessed are the people whose God is the Lord!
ps 145:15-16
the eyes of all look to You,
and You give them their food in due time.
You open Your hand
and satisfy the desire of every living thing.
ps 84:12
o Lord of hosts;
how blessed is the man who trusts in You!
ps 55:6
i said "oh, that i had wings like a dove!
i would fly away and be at rest.
ps 115:1
not to us, o Lord, not to us,
but to Your name give glory
because of Your lovingkindness, because of Your truth.
ps 102
even they will perish, but You endure;
and all of them will wear out like a garment;
like clothing You will change them and they will be changed.
but You are the same,
and Your years will not come to an end.
the children of Your servants will continue,
and their desendants will be established before You.
ps 143:6
i stretch out my hands to You;
my soul longs for You, as a parched land. Selah.
ps 144:15b
how blessed are the people whose God is the Lord!
ps 145:15-16
the eyes of all look to You,
and You give them their food in due time.
You open Your hand
and satisfy the desire of every living thing.
ps 84:12
o Lord of hosts;
how blessed is the man who trusts in You!
ps 55:6
i said "oh, that i had wings like a dove!
i would fly away and be at rest.
ps 115:1
not to us, o Lord, not to us,
but to Your name give glory
because of Your lovingkindness, because of Your truth.
Saturday, May 24, 2008
the big 4 - oh
as some of you know i turned the big 40 on thursday. i had alot of people ask me if it bothered me turning 40 and to be honest i would have to say no. i thought it would bother me more than it did but it really didn't. if anything it has made me more introspective. it has made me stop and think about who i am and who do i want to be. i have realized that turning 40 is not the end of the world and in alot of ways its just the beginning. i have just enough time under my belt to realize that alot of things i thought mattered really don't and now that i realize they don't really matter i can stop it and do what really does matter.
God has been putting some very interesting reading in my path lately. some it is His word (go figure) and some of it is thru magazines and books. the magazine article that really got me to thinking was about a mother of teenagers (go figure, again) that felt she had become a thing to her children, a means to an end, a maid/taxi driver/atm/cook/whatever they needed her to be but not who she really was, their mother. she also realized she was getting a bad attitude and didn't want her children to remember her as this bitter, resentful mom, but as the mom that gladly did for her children because she loved them. i don't want to be this bitter resentful mom that at times i feel i am becoming. i know there is a fine line between being a giver and being taken for granted. every person should have healthy boundaries in place so that they aren't everyone's doormat and i don't believe we have been called to cater to our childrens every beck and call. we must teach them personal responsibility, but we must also show them unconditional love and that if anything we are always on their side even if that means being tough.
so God has been working on me. He has really got me examining who i perceive myself to be and how that matches up to His reality of who i am. He keeps telling me that its ok to be me, i don't have to be everyone else. i can have my own opinion and not apoligize for it. its ok to like or not like what everyone else likes. the people who love me love me for me not for what i can do for them or be for them. this has been a big struggle for me. i feel this need to conform to those around me. pastor said something several months ago that really got me to thinking. he said that everyone is moving at a different pace and its ok to move at your own pace. for the last year God has definately moved me at a different pace and gotten me out of my comfort zone. in alot of ways my kids have taught me things i didn't know i needed to learn. they have challenged me in areas that i wouldn't challenge myself. they have caused me to examine who i am and who i am becoming. they have made me a better person in spite of myself. they have kept me on my face before God and have caved in my heart with their trials and growing pains. they have made me who i am today and for that i am truly thankful.
God has been putting some very interesting reading in my path lately. some it is His word (go figure) and some of it is thru magazines and books. the magazine article that really got me to thinking was about a mother of teenagers (go figure, again) that felt she had become a thing to her children, a means to an end, a maid/taxi driver/atm/cook/whatever they needed her to be but not who she really was, their mother. she also realized she was getting a bad attitude and didn't want her children to remember her as this bitter, resentful mom, but as the mom that gladly did for her children because she loved them. i don't want to be this bitter resentful mom that at times i feel i am becoming. i know there is a fine line between being a giver and being taken for granted. every person should have healthy boundaries in place so that they aren't everyone's doormat and i don't believe we have been called to cater to our childrens every beck and call. we must teach them personal responsibility, but we must also show them unconditional love and that if anything we are always on their side even if that means being tough.
so God has been working on me. He has really got me examining who i perceive myself to be and how that matches up to His reality of who i am. He keeps telling me that its ok to be me, i don't have to be everyone else. i can have my own opinion and not apoligize for it. its ok to like or not like what everyone else likes. the people who love me love me for me not for what i can do for them or be for them. this has been a big struggle for me. i feel this need to conform to those around me. pastor said something several months ago that really got me to thinking. he said that everyone is moving at a different pace and its ok to move at your own pace. for the last year God has definately moved me at a different pace and gotten me out of my comfort zone. in alot of ways my kids have taught me things i didn't know i needed to learn. they have challenged me in areas that i wouldn't challenge myself. they have caused me to examine who i am and who i am becoming. they have made me a better person in spite of myself. they have kept me on my face before God and have caved in my heart with their trials and growing pains. they have made me who i am today and for that i am truly thankful.
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