dude where's my car?

tonight its just me and squirt having some girl time. so we went and ate and decided to go to baskin robbins for dessert. well we were leaving baskins when i looked up from the drivers side door of my loaner car and i don't see squirt. i glance over to the big black suburban parked next to us and squirt had opened the passenger side door before she realized it was not our vehicle. apparently she wasn't watching where she was going and is just so used to getting into a big black truck that she didn't realize it wasn't ours. the young lady sitting in the suburban was so surprised when her door was opened by this strange girl. i'm still laughing at her. this was just the funniest thing thats happened to us.

sweet and sour

we play a game as we are driving called sweet and sour. squirt waves at cars and if they wave back they are sweet and if they don't they are sour. well the other day i was stopped at a light beside a school bus when i caught movement out of the corner of my eye. as i glanced to my left i saw the sweetest redheaded, freckle-faced boy waving at me. so i waved back and he got the biggest grin on his face and waved even harder. i smiled for the rest of the day.

i guess i'm sweet.

happy valentines day!!!!

i had such a good valentines day today. instead of navel gazing i decided i would make life a little brighter for those around me. my family woke up to little presents for each person and i took presents to work for the 3 ladies i sit with. they were all so totally surprised. it kept a smile on my face all day. and when i got home freddie had a little surprize for me. she made me a pillow and a card. it was so sweet and was from her heart. which are the best kind of presents. she has been a tough nut to crack over the last year but i think she is getting a little softer and realizing that she is loved so much by all of us. in a lot of ways she is afraid of getting hurt and i can't blame her. she has had so many promises broken by the very people who should be protecting her. i know part of the hardness toward God is because of this. but i also know that He has a plan for her and she can run but cannot hide from His love.

no time for blogging

sorry guys i have had no time for blogging.

i am pretty much done with the non stop appointments. to sum it up i now have 3 kids in glasses (squirt, moe and freddie). their mom was quite upset that moe and fred needed glasses but thats just how it goes. freddie has a lovely new smile thanks to a new laminate on her front tooth. moe has lovely sealents to protect his molars and 4 wisdom teeth. yes i said wisdom teeth, apparently all 4 of his wisdom teeth have already came in. squirt now has braces. just on the top so far - they will add the bottoms in about 3 months. everyone has new haircuts and i'm one tired momma. the only thing we have left is blood work for moe and freddie due to their weight and high cholesteral runs on their mommas side of the family.

i am almost done with my first college class. all i have left is the final and i hope to take that sometime next week. i can honestly say that most of the math you learn in high school you never use again. the kids got a big kick out of that statement.

i had a pretty bad virus last week. bad enough that i missed 4 days of work and the kids gladly walked to school every morning because the sight of me scared them. one morning freddie told me to go back to bed cause i didn't look so good. thanks freddie...i can always count on my kids for honest opinions.

sister is still living in the "crack" motel. i have felt too puny to prod her into looking for a better place. i also figure when she gets sick enough of it she'll be motivated to move. i can only do so much.

a hard place

please pray for freddie.

she is in that very hard place that some of us have been in. she has decided she cannot believe in 'our' God because 'our' God says lesbians go to hell. and she can't believe that her mother is going to hell if she doesn't accept Jesus. she has decided to believe in the universalist unitarian god that says all people go to heaven and there are many different paths leading to god.

so just pray.

9 months

i should be giving birth any moment now.

on thursday i had a dr appt. actually i went in to interview a dr to see if he was gonna be who i wanted. something is happening to me the closer i get to the big 40. i am getting so bold when it comes to certain things. i am so tired of doctors who schedule appts every 15 minutes and then just want to write you a prescription. is it so wrong to want a dr to actually be a dr? to actually listen to you and try to figure out whats wrong with you and that sometimes you don't need a prescription. you might just need someone to tell you the hard things like you need to lose weight, quit smoking, drinking...etc. and no i don't smoke or drink, but i do need to lose weight. about 50 pounds but we will be happy with 40. so i now have a dr who acts like a dr.

the kids are doing great. we have started counseling and its going well so far. the kids like their drs and hopefully we can work through some of the issues. in the past 3 weeks we have had a total of 6 dr/dentist/eye appts for everyone (mom and dad included, dad needs bi-focals hehehehehe) and the next 2 weeks we will have a total of 10 more appts. i am being co-payed to death but freddie and moe have never had an eye exam and very few dental cleanings and even fewer dr visits. luckily freddie only had 1 cavity and moe has none. once we get everyone caught up it won't be so bad. oh and did i forget squirt is getting braces next month. we find out on monday how much this will cost us. thank God for insurance.

sister is doing good. i am learning when to push and when to lead. it is so weird realizing she is truly mentally ill. there are some things she will never be able to do. some normal day to day tasks totally stress her out or she just goes into a state of denial and conveniently 'forgets' to do them. its almost like having a 5th child. only this child is an adult and doesn't always want to be told what to do. so God is giving me the strength and courage to take responsibility and push/lead when i needs doing. come to think of it i've always been the responsible one. the one who always made sure everyone was taken care of. it's not such a bad thing. when it starts getting to me i realize that God is always responsible for me and i don't always have to do it all. the other morning my husband said the most remarkable thing 'control is an illusion'. how right he is. i am a bit of a control freak and those 4 little words have wandered thru my mind more than once this week. when i find myself getting anxious i just think of Who is really in control and the anxiety goes away.

honey, i've decided.....

my husbands eyes glazed over when he hears those 3 words. he has realized over the years that those 3 words could mean anything from lets do some major home remodeling to lets order pizza tonight. well my latest honey i've decided....is i want a tattoo for my 40th birthday this year. my birthday is in may so that gives me enough time to decide what i want.....oh i have a general idea but its not carved in stone, or should i say skin right now. in case you don't know i have 2 tattoos already and this 3rd one will be an addition to the one i have on my shoulder. i also know there are better things i could spend my money on but this is what i want to spend my money on. we will consider this my mid life crisis and once its done i can move on into old lady status. or maybe biker old lady with a tat status. yea that sounds better.

feelin' so fly

i'm madly in love with tobyMac's CD 'portable sound'. i can't stop listening to it. i know i'm gonna get sick of it eventually but until then i'm gonna enjoy the sounds.

can't help but glorify my Adonai. gotta testify.

the words are just so catchy. i find myself dancing in my seat at work.

this ain't no firedrill. it hits like holyfield.

my love affair with toby started many years ago, 11 to be exact when i was a baby christian and a friend gave me a cassette of DC Talk - Jesus freak.

people think i'm strange, does it make me a stranger
my Best Friend was born in a manger.

i didn't realize christian music could sound so good. i only associated christian music with music that i didn't want to listen to. you know slow and without passion.

here to rep the Most High with this one.

or so i thought, oh did God have a surprize for me. that one cassette opened my eyes to the realities of God. He wasn't just a God of hymns. He was a God who wanted to groove.

you'll never find peace in your pool of self

i do like slow songs but nothing moves me like a hard rockin' song like third day 'consuming fire'. these are drivin' songs. you know the kind you put in your vehicle, roll the windows down and drive really fast while singin' at the top of your lungs.

Yesterday was the day that I was alone
Now I'm in the presence of Almighty God

so thank you God for showing me so long ago and then reminding me almost everyday that you care about the music i listen to and You have given talented men and women a vision to rock out for You.