so much to say

i have so much to say but can't quite find the right words. the last 2 weeks have been non-stop crazy around here. this time of the year always makes me very sentimental. i like to remember all the christmas' past and think about how some people have only been in my life for a short time but have made such a big impact.

the last few days i have been thinking about squirts grandpa. his name was buster and he was one of a kind. he was her dad's father and he truly loved her without reservation. she could do no wrong in his eyes. she was the youngest grandchild and had him wrapped around her little finger. also it didn't hurt that he babysat her the 1st four years of her life so that i wouldn't have to put her in daycare.

when she was 4 months old buster had a massive heart attack and had to have a quadruple bypass. the day after his surgery the icu nurses couldn't get him to settle down until they promised to let me sneak her in to see him. so one of the nurses brought me around through a side door and snuck us into his room. all he needed was to see his girl.

his birthday is dec 22nd and every year i would make him his favorite pie, egg custard. he is the only person i know who likes this pie so i taught myself how to make it so he could have his special treat. he would go crazy when i brought it to him and he would always eat a piece right away to make sure i made it right. after that he would hide it so no one else would eat any. not that any of us would. he has been gone now 2 years but we have the comfort of knowing we will see him in heaven one day. his salvation story was nothing short of a miracle. squirt prayed for that man everyday for about 10 years until his heart finally soften and he accepted Jesus as his savior. she had such an unwavering faith that he would accept Jesus one day and she got to see her prayers answered. whenever they were together he would dance with her and now one day they will dance in heaven. i am so glad God blessed us with the love of this man. he was always a loving grandfather to squirt and a friend to me even when me and his son split up. but most of all he was an honest hardworking man. a man everyone was proud to know.
we love you buster and miss you very much.